Overwhelmed 😵

I think this week has been very stressful and a bit overwhelming. Lots of triggers in my life right now, all happening all at once. It's fascinating to see myself progress so much from last year. I like that I've become more confident in my individuality. Days like these, though, it's hard to not lose sanity over.

I'm excited about this presentation and really want to take that initiative in leading the presentation. However, I'm scared. In the past, I've always failed at presentations because of my social anxiety. I mean, the more you do, the better you become at presenting. Maybe I'll practice presenting during the weekend. Sometimes when I am emotionally overthinking in my presentation, I'm hyperfixated on the negatives. But I'm really passionate about this story and motivated to move forward to it. I think it's a fun and an engaging story that can connect classmates and friends together to work on. I think the story itself is wholesome and meant to be enjoyed. Personally, I would like to focus on a story that expresses themes of love and connection.

I understand, realistically, my presentation may or may not get picked. I also think that's okay. I think despite it all, I'm going to enjoy working on a student project film as a team. I think I could learn a lot but just collaborating with people. I do see the joys of leading though, I like directing, especially when others aren't wanting to.