Anxiety of asking for help

I think it’s been trained in me how inconvenient it is of asking for help. I mean not saying that it is, because it isn’t.

My dad made me believe that asking for help had always come with a cost, that asking for help puts pressure on someone else’s plate.

Growing up, my siblings had enforced this mentality as well, so I forever became anxious of asking for help.

I think with age you don’t necessarily become wiser, although, I do think lessons of failure teach people to grow. That’s usually why people of more experience are wiser, which can correlate to age but not necessarily mean it’s because of their age.

I think sometimes I underestimate the amount of work I complete in contrast to others. Like I always feel tired but I know that rather than resting I can get more done so then I end up doing more. I think it’s because I have this internal need to be validated for my efforts and works, but I’m also learning to find that validation in myself. I also think I’m just so excited about progressing in the production, sometimes I happen to move fast when I’m excited. Lots of things always running in my mind.

Can’t believe I made 43 shots in the span of a week. Wish a company would hire me already what the heck.

Anyways not much else to say about everyone else. At the end of the day people are built different - sometimes things need to get broken down and that’s ok. Although some group members may not agree with “simplifying tasks” I think it’s better than nothing. Sometimes you need to adapt and move on.

At the end of the day we are all monkies. 🐒